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Hey, I hope no one here starts judging you or anything. Because that's a lot to go through at any age. Now, I would tell you that it would require a lot less energy to just not care about him. Because, in the end, the opposite of love isn't hatred, its apathy. So just try not to care about him either way. And see if maybe you could talk your mom into giving you an allowance or raising it if you already have one. That way it won't feel as much like your being bossed around but more like you have a job. and tell your mom how you feel, because maybe your step dad doesn't care about you but its clear your mom does. And I bet you she cares much more about you than him.